the first step is always the hardest

if you have a manual on hand and read the step by step instructions, and have proven that the statement on number one is far beyond the boundaries of exhaustion and intricacy, you might as well argue with me that my title is obviously not generally true... and i don't particularly care. waw taray? hahahahah :)) joke lang :)

whenever i need to study for an exam, the hardest part is getting myself grab the notes or books or initially focus and accept the fact that indeed, i am studying and must study until i am satisfied with what i already know... or in short words pag naaral ko na yung mga dapat aralin.

whenever i wake up in the morning, the hardest part is standing up and leaving my bed--again accepting the fact that i need to wake up.. that no matter how comfortable sleeping is or how good my fantasies in my sleeping dreams are, i need to face the day and act as if i don't lack sleep at all.whenever i want to try something new, the first try is always the scariest..... it's because i don't have an idea of how it feels like... of how would it affect my life... of how it would be like. yet after some tries, you find yourself getting used to..... you find yourself immune to the pain and threat that the challenge imposes.... and eventually you get the hang of what you're doing... parang rapelling yan. takot na takot ako mag-Aussie rapel at mag-Lizard nun.. pero after nung una akong try, inulit ulit ko pa. nakakaadik pala ang pakiramdam ng nakabitin ka sa lubid nang alam mong kahit tumalon ka at mahulog at walang sumalo sa iyo, alam mong hindi ka mamamatay dahil may lubid na sumisiguradong masisilayan mo pa rin ang bukas. focus lang ang kailangan.... at determinasyon na huwag kang masugatan.

the first step is always acceptance. and it is the hardest... why? because in accepting, you admit whatever wrong you have done and whatever right you have not done, you can't undo and do because time will not come back and the cliche "there are no rewinds" haunts you... and then you feel the searing pain in your chest and realize that it's the time when happiness is in another world but you have no choice any way and so you just pretend to be happy for the sake of not appearing loser in front of the judging crowd. and then, when you have accepted things or at least forced yourself to make you think that you have REALLY accepted, your system adjusts to face whatever changes the day offers.... and even with difficulty, you know, you just know that it's time to move on and prove the world that indeed, you have accepted the things you need to accept because you must....not because you want to.

ayaw ko naman magpakanega...

in accepting things earlier, you'll have more chance to recover or do the things that you need to do...... on a really positive note, if you've accepted a thing right then and then, you can immediately work out for it. di ba?:))

wahahah :))

in reality, acceptance is not that hard expecially if you pour your heart into it... and if you ask guidance from God... :)
bakit ba ako napunta sa topic ng acceptance?
HAHAHAH!..god bless :)